‘Feelin’ fine!’

Mark Linville

It is now the midpoint of my seventh semester at UMKC and I find myself playing the same old game I started back in 2007.

It all seems kind of mundane and boring.

College used to be fun; living in dorms, going to parties, staying up late, and meeting new people. But now I just want things to change.

I am not going to use the term “senioritis” because it is lame and I am only a junior.

I am not sure what it was that drained the fun out of my life recently, but my “fun life” is fairly similar to that of an empty bottle of something really good, if you know what I mean; only a few remaining drops left to dry up at the bottom, left to dwell in the trash can.

I think I need a refill, or just a new bottle.

I don’t get it. I have one of the most interesting jobs on campus, the U-News news editor. Money is not a problem for once in my life, and I have plenty of friends and fraternity brothers to party with, and still something is missing.

Most nights I find myself just wanting to stay in and watch TV and not worry about anything, but somehow that “anything” always seems to creep in and I do more monotonous crap.

I just want to watch the Food Network and play some freaking Play station like I used to do!

Maybe it is my long days throughout the week?

It could be my energy is drained, not my “fun life.”

My days usually begin when I wake up at 7 a.m. and end at about 10 p.m.

It sucks like no other. I leave my apartment and literally don’t see it again until dark, and that happens everyday.

I believe I pay $600 a month, and for what?

I find myself skipping a class here and there just to catch a break and breathe.

Funny thing is my life isn’t that stressful, just busy.

I am usually the one that adds the stress.

I apply stress for some inhumane reason I find necessary.

Sometimes I feel like Homer Simpson in the “Tree House of Horrors: The Shinning episode”.

“No TV and no beer make Homer something, something,” Homer said.

“Go crazy?” Marge said.

“Don’t mind if I do!” Homer said.

Like Homer Simpson, I too scare myself sometimes when I make crazy faces in the mirror.

So this is what it has come down to? Comparing myself to a cartoon character? Awesome! Sad, yet funny.

This is what happens when I let my mind wonder into a Word document.

But seriously folks, I do love my life, I am thankful for all I have and what I recently gained.

I miss those no longer in my life and I adore those who are here with me.

I am a very fortunate person and am glad to be alive at this point, but something really fun and enjoyable better happen soon or I will go all cartoon-like up in this place.

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